Last year, I gave birth to a baby girl via emergency cesarean surgery. She came four weeks early and weighed only 1.5 kg (3.3 lb).
Due to the incompetence of the medical staff at the hospital, she became severely ill with sepsis. After an inadequate diagnosis and treatment, she translated after just eight days.
I have been struggling with this loss, even though, as an ECKist, I know to surrender to the ECK and let go.
I always remember how she struggled in pain. Yet whenever I asked her doctors about that, they told me she was fine.
It hurts because I feel I failed to be diligent, as her mother—to protect her and to know she was suffering from sepsis.
She was here for such a short time. Was this a karmic debt I paid, or one she paid? Will I ever meet her again in this lifetime, as mother and daughter?
—Jade O., Nigeria
You did all you could have for your daughter. When you asked the doctors about her health, they assured you it was fine. There is no way you could have known about the sepsis.
You both paid off a karmic debt through this experience. Now the karmic bonds are balanced between you in that regard. You two could meet again as mother and daughter in this lifetime. However, know that the Lords of Karma will have their say, as will the Soul who’d come as your daughter.
If you can accept this experience as a gift to bring you closer to the MAHANTA, you will then be well on your way to the healing of your heart.
